Life without Karen

Its now year 2 celebrating my time around the Sun. It so empty and lonely especially this year. The big LX next year. Physical pain is greatly reduced but still a big hole in my heart. An appropriate rainy day today for this Birthday.

Life without Karen

These last few weeks have been very empty.  Days blur into weeks and now months. Holidays have little meaning. Just hanging in on the little blibs of events.  Just barely able to laugh.

Life without Karen

I have come around a complete circle in life. I watched the new Top Gun movie alone at the theater over 30 year later watching the original movie alone in 1986.

😭😭😭😭

alone

Life without Karen

Happiness depends on having something to do, someone to love and something to look forward to. 

Currently no one to love or hug. Little connection since most of my causes have also dried up. Feels like looking from the outside  of the world. 

Life after Karen

My life has been a  slow slope of advances but with many steps backward. I move forward,then fallback, move up a bit, then fall back. Since 2018, just a series of set backs: Dad died in 2018, pushed out of job due to racism in 2019, Covid hits me and Karen in 2020, Karen dying in 2021. The fabulous 50's of my life quickly turned into the total crashing of everything.  Truly have hit the absolute bottom with my milestone Birthday of 60 next year.    I realize that life is worse for others in the world but having a hard time finding the joy in life currently.  Not ready to hit the self destruct button but need a major boost soon to contine.

Life after Karen

Life for me is a shit show since 2018.

Dad died 2018, pushed out of job in 2019,Covid 2020 and Karen died 2021.

Find it hard to contine with the game of life.  Believed so many lies on life and how it was supposed to work.