Life after Karen

Feeling more like an old man everyday.  I am thankful to ne this age but being alone makes it harder.  Always the lone wolf looking inside the social events. 

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Life without Karen

Warm spring today.  Belle Isle was on jam with couple's, friends, and family.

Just felt like a lonely old man. 

No connections to really share 100%.

Life without Karen

6 months  till 60 years old. This was to be one of the last few great milestones in life and currently feels so empty. Each day seems the same. Not much to look forward to.  Unable to create lasting relationships or joy these last few months.  Disappointment is now the rule of the day.  No great expectations , just to expect disappointment. Have to make life go in my direction for a change. This decade is the worst since the 1980s.

Life without Karen 2023

 

 

 Just a New Year, no happy yet.  Approaching 2 calendar since Karen died and 3 years of missed major events. Both hips are now replaced so major physical pain will be reduced but emotions still low. Loneliness has settled in and maybe by the big 60 that could change.  

 

Must go back in the workforce to make a living, sell other unit, clear out all storage area, and remove Karen's belongings. All I can say is these last 6 years, I am truly at the lowest point in my life.

 

  

Life without Karen 2022

The new year starts in 3 days. I will be going out alone but was fully prepared mentally.  2023 marks year 60 on this planetary body called Earth.  Not sure what to do to mark this landmark but Karen will not be here for the celebration.  Motto for 2023; It is what it is.  Taking back the helm from this grief and sorrow path.  Controlling my expectations and work to increase personal happiness.