Tuesday, September 20, 2022
Its now year 2 celebrating my time around the Sun. It so empty and lonely especially this year. The big LX next year. Physical pain is greatly reduced but still a big hole in my heart. An appropriate rainy day today for this Birthday.
Tuesday, July 05, 2022
Friday, June 17, 2022
Tuesday, June 14, 2022
Happiness depends on having something to do, someone to love and something to look forward to.
Currently no one to love or hug. Little connection since most of my causes have also dried up. Feels like looking from the outside of the world.
Wednesday, June 01, 2022
My life has been a slow slope of advances but with many steps backward. I move forward,then fallback, move up a bit, then fall back. Since 2018, just a series of set backs: Dad died in 2018, pushed out of job due to racism in 2019, Covid hits me and Karen in 2020, Karen dying in 2021. The fabulous 50's of my life quickly turned into the total crashing of everything. Truly have hit the absolute bottom with my milestone Birthday of 60 next year. I realize that life is worse for others in the world but having a hard time finding the joy in life currently. Not ready to hit the self destruct button but need a major boost soon to contine.